The TV program isn't inviting so I turned it off. The weather is so much like summer, that I decided to take my wine glass out on the balcony. The sun was setting in a big red ball of flames... just beautiful!
The wind is still. Some birds are chirrping, neighbors are going about their business and making normal noises. The trains pass by below, planes are flying overhead. But the stillness is still marvelous.
I sit there and think. Sometimes I think too much. I feel alone, though I have so many who care about me. I am stressed out about work, though today my boss actually supported me for a change.
The stillness. It's a perfect evening. One needed to be shared.
The lights on my solar hummingbirds begin to light. I come inside to avoid some bugs starting to appear. I check my "other" blog... and there are so many people I miss. Some spend more time on facebook then with real blog entries... pity, I love to read about their lives.... and not just one-sentence phrases.
I should stay outside but it's getting dark now. My cat sat on my life and couldn't get enough of my petting her. I'm so glad I have her... she's a big comfort.
Tomorrow is Good Friday and a holiday. I'm not sure yet what I'll do. Be lazy? We shall see.....
I have so many projects I'd like to work on, but some how there's no motivation. Even spending time online, visiting my various "favorite" sites and foren have become boring....
On Sunday I'll be together with my family, and all four grandkids. Of course I enjoy being with them, but it's a whole different generation. I yearn for friends of my own age. I know some, but I'm tired of making the arrangements. I feel like I'm chasing them. If they don't contact me, then why should I continue to bother?
My certain-someone has other obligations, as usual.... *sigh*
Sorry for my ramblings... I'm just trying to express myself. I really have no reason to complain.
1) I have great kids and grandkids.... and all healthy.
OK, so my daughter is leaving her hubby, moving out to a new apartment with the kids. I'll support her, but it's still sad.
2) My parents are still alive and have had a long, fullfilled life.
My mom is now in a care home and is suffering from extreme Alzheimers. When my dad goes to visit her, she tells him to leave! They have been married for 66 years and he's now home alone. She fell the other day and ended up in the ER. She's back at the home now and doing ok. I am not there for her......and him.
3) I have a good paying job
Which I hate more and more! The one Jerk is now gone, retired, but the other, young idjit is still there. He has so many stupid ideas about our job, he's going to soon fall on his face. Unfortunately my boss is the same. Both have only been there a year and no nothing! But does my opinion count? Of course not! I've only been doing this shit work for 13 years... and know nothing about it! I almost hope for them to really mess up. Is that sad or what? I hate to wish people bad, but in some cases.....
4) I love my apartment!
It's the first place that I really feel comfy in. No complaints here! lol
I just stepped back outside onto the balcony... it's a perfect evening. I wish there was someone here to share it with....
Willow
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