Feeling like being bulldozed....

The last days have been stressfull, as if that's anything new. It's been almost non-stop running around since Thursday morning and not over yet. Tomorrow will, hopefully be a lazy day.

I've been neglecting this place lately. I've often sat here, hands over the keyboard, trying to find the right words.... they are just not coming.

And I have also been neglecting my favs... sorry about that.

I'm off again, working overtime on Saturday once again. At least I'm able to get off work early during the week to compensate, or even take a whole day off.

More another day... when I find the words I'm searching for.....

Willow

Ten years....

Yesterday my certain someone and I celebrated 10 years together. In a situation as ours, that's a long time.

In those 10 years we have gone through all the highs and lows, ups and downs, that all couples go through.

Some of you know about us and our "special" situation. If you are a reader of my "normal" journal, you will notice a certain melancholy mood. I'm usually a smiling, happy person, but sometimes... well, heck, I'm human!

Yes, the word melancholy fits quite well. I once wrote an entry using that word as a title. So, today I'm having a melancholy day. Let's blame it on the cold, rainy, dreary, grey weather, OK?

Ten years .... promises made, not yet kept. Still too many un-answered questions. But I'm still optomistic... our day will come! He promised me.....

Don't worry, I'm hanging in there. I just don't feel very smiley at the moment....

Willow

Quiet times and Reflections

The following is part of an entry I once wrote in the old JS:

Like the lady in the photo above, I love to sit by the ocean and watch the water come, and go, then return once more. My thoughts then start to wander and I reflect about all that has happened in my life, past and present.

Another place I enjoy is up on a mountain near my home where I grew up. From there I can see all around me, and once more I reflect on my past and present.

Those are my quiet times. Unfortunately I live far away from both. Maybe some day I'll return there again. and not just to visit, but to live permanently. I'm reflecting on that, but not while viewing into the sea or from a mountain.

This journal may soon be a place to put those reflections into words. At the moment they are too abstract.

At the moment I'm not feeling like blogging at all. Not here, not on my "official" journal. I told myself I'd make myself rare for a bit, like so many others are also doing. I would also try to avoid commenting.... but that wouldn't be me!

So my visits here may become even more sporadic then they already have been.... sorry. There were times when I wanted to write here, but as soon as I started to type, the words wouldn't come... so I would delete it.

Another reason may be the fact that so many of my favoritie people/bloggers are going through so much hardship at the moment and I can't help... and their hardships make mine seem so small and unimportant.

I did find/receive my old entries so I may repeat one or two, as I did above.

Don't forget me....

Willow